Sunday, October 31, 2010

I was born by the river..

...and just like that river Ive been running ever since;)
There are many dry river beds in my hometown this one is one of them, there are many stories about these too, some scary and others that make you want to be a stone to see what they have seen, I just thought id show you these, it is now just dry but every now and then if it rains enough, it will run. Nothing is lost.

Shamans of the Amazon - The Ayahuasca Experience

My heart breaks for their loss. This was such a beautiful film, the most beautiful I have seen on the subject, I happen to speak spanish and what the subtitles do not show is how they say what they say, from where it comes from. I see no life for myself other than being one with nature, I share their pain to see the world be sucked dry.
Before this life is over my trip to the Amazon is due.

Friday, October 29, 2010

I started this sketch right now,it is not done yet, obviously. I know the face is not proportionate and its bad, but its an idea I have for a painting, that and I want to start sketching, make it a habit.
I think maybe the painting will be a cropped version of this, or maybe something totally different, who knows;)

Did you notice the side bar?

I used to have this formspring account, so I deleted all older questions, and decided maybe this could be the way to get some suggestions, or something, people keep telling me to go on 'tumblr' which I dont know just because, I have this already, and I dont think its really my style, considering my semi- anti social nature;)
just kidding, well I decided to have this here, if anyone wanted to know where I get some of the things I post from, or if you just want to drop a line, I dont know. but it would be so awesome if maybe YOU could show me something that youre interested in? maybe books, websites, artists or films, things of that nature. You dont need a formspring account to submit a question. Please dont submit crazy things, I dont think Ill approve them, and I will check this sometimes a month to maybe post an answer? should be great.

Star Trails

on a beach near Gytheio, Peloponnesus in southern Greece.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I should start writing down complete thoughts more often.
Laziness is what it isssss

thoughts at midnight

Take this:
Right now your probably reading this in your head with this voice that is unspoken, maybe like your conscience?, and its not like in the movies where this voice is an exact double for your 'real' voice. This voice is more romantic in a way, more poetic. and it follows you through life sometimes thinking things that compliment you now, or others that could not be farther from it. I have always used this voice, sometimes its very quiet, so quiet you cant even hear it but you KNOW you had a thought, and what thought you had.
How is this possible?
It really goes hand in hand with so many theories already in my head that at midnight last night all of these theories, thoughts, my logic, and philosophy on life aligned and this voice was the leader behind this event, and last night I felt for this moment that I knew it all, I had no questions because what this voice hinted at was so marvelous.
Anyway I got to this all by briefly listening to a conversation on reincarnation and, I so far, dont know if i believe in it. I have lent an ear to it before and I think wrongly labeled it a reason for some things in my life. This whole reincarnation subject got me thinking to reevaluate if I still didn't believe in it (because these things change, you know (depending on how much thinking is involved)) ;) and thinking, I was using this voice I mentioned earlier, the same one you have, well and I imagined myself later in this life, I still had this voice and I imagined myself in various dying scenarios (a favorite past time of mine) and in all of them I still had this voice telling me, "your dying look around you" or "this is what it feels to die" something of that nature and then I realized that no matter what I theorize or have come to speculate on death, I do not know what is on the other side.
But I do know this:
That in my dreams I have this voice, and that in my heart of hearts I cannot imagine all this voice consists of to be lost or stopped only to reincarnate again.
How did it begin?
..and for a moment I was so deep in thought that I could fathom various afterlife possibilities with my 'voice' allowed, and in those reincarnation was just so laughable.
Because this voice is timeless and eternal, because of the infinity in the Now it is filled with the truest truths so it is light as a feather and easy to carry.
I for a moment knew I carried a piece of nothing, everything. you know?
I felt like this voice was the essence of my known experience and potential all together, that I was both alive and dead now. I was being born and dying in this moment of thought. I could almost feel the ticks on the clock forever slowing down. I was just a little spec, the spec. The whole picture.
I understood everything without knowing what even I was understanding; you know, I knew all by knowing I knew not a thing.
Now take this:
You've read this with your own 'voice' which really is mine, or as mine as anything could be, but it is not, because its in your head now, or are you in this instant me? (keep in mind I am in a different space, and time even, i am on a different path having a totally different experience.)
How could this be?
Now the only truth I have come to accept as such has come from nature, and it [nature] has not failed me in this, nor do I believe it ever will because the answer to the question this entire thought seems to pose can only be seen, and not necessarily with eyes be it that as these thoughts filled my head they turned colors and swirled into one another.
how is it possible to be so in LOVE.
this is not normal
but what is;)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Ultraviolet Andromeda

the gorgeous island universe in optical light
This stunning vista represents the highest resolution image ever made of the Andromeda Galaxy (aka M31) at ultraviolet wavelengths.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

"Great numbers of children will be born who understand electronics and atomic power as well as other forms of energy. They will grow into scientists and engineers of a new age which has the power to destroy civilization unless we learn to live by spiritual laws."
- Edgar Cayce

Photography, minus the camera

"We're so conditioned to the syntax of the camera,"
"We don't realise we're running on only half the visual alphabet."
Image: Centre Pompidou, Paris/Musée National d'Art Moderne/Centre de Création Industrielle/courtesy of Pierre Cordier
Image: Floris Neusüss/Museumslandschaft Hessen Kassel, Graphische Sammlung, Germany
I did not see old friends, I went and came back the same day, im feeling like.. "Everyday of the week im in a different city yall".. and if i stay too long, the people do pull me down. ;)

talkin bout the clothes I wear, but they dont realize theyre the ones whos square

just kidding;)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I will be going out of town this weekend. hope to see old friends.
fun fun fun
Orion: head to toe

Message to the Messengers

Gil Scott for you;)

Friday, October 22, 2010

"We need another and a wiser and perhaps a more mystical concept of animals. Remote from universal nature and living by complicated artifice, man in civilization surveys the creature through the glass of his knowledge and sees thereby a feather magnified and the whole image in distortion. We patronize them for their incompleteness, for their tragic fate for having taken form so far below ourselves. And therein we err, and greatly err. For the animal shall not be measured by man. In a world older and more complete than ours, they move finished and complete, gifted with the extension of the senses we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear. They are not brethren, they are not underlings: they are other nations, caught with ourselves in the net of life and time, fellow prisoners of the splendour and travail of the earth."

Henry Beston
'The Outermost House'

beyond the naked eye

The microscopic world.
Many of the stunning images were taken to advance science,
but are just simply beautiful to look at!
The complete list of 2010 winners is [here] along with honorable mentions,
and images of distinction.
Talk about a psychedelic realm! ;)
Dr. Hideo Otsuna -- 5-day old zebrafish head (20x)
Gerd Guenther -- Soap film (150x)

Thursday, October 21, 2010

"It is music for the different, the uninvited.
It carries the listener into the shadowy realm of Dream."
- Johnny Depp
'When you're strange'

message of Love

I have a few things today
last night I was listening to c2c (as always) and would like to share some things
Dr. Leonard G. Horowitz was on and he was amazing, he talked about spirituality and healing. What I want to share is a few quotes, and a website.

he was saying how there is no disease or illness incurable, something i truly believe, he put it this way:
"nothing is sick, or broken in Heaven... so let it be on Earth as it is in Heaven"
he also said that we need to be in touch with our divinity, that we are 'super human' not just human, we have just been dumbed down to the point we think sickness is normal. He reminds me of Dr. Leonard Coldwell, but more spiritual/religious?

He went on to say what I think we all just intuitively feel is true, that love is the greatest power of all. that people are starting to wake up but not because of outside force, because propaganda is as big as ever, that "people are starting to wake up from the heart."
This is the revolution, and its an inner thing, going back to the natural, our selves.

Okay, last quotes, He went to talk about evil in a most interesting way,
"evil cannot always be defeated but it [evil] can always be resisted"
what does that say about the nature of evil? ;)

Finally, he said "magic is simply creating change through will", dont we live in such a magical place?;)
so we should make it our will to LOVE. and Heal.

This is the website I wanted to share, because music is just too important, and for everyone:
Use This Convenient Service to Transpose iTunes or MP3 Audio Files to 528Hz - The Frequency of Love - to Turn Listening into Powerful Miraculous Healing.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

its about time I work on something new, I started this collage like piece yesterday afternoon I ripped up this really religious book I bought on impulse a while back and put it on some recycled sheets of paper to make this enormous thing, I hope to paint some cool things over this, I want to try more abstract figures and shapes, maybe a bit on the representational side, I dont know, I never know what im gonna paint ;3 its best that way.
I also started a smaller piece, Ill post that soon.
but it was awesome to have gesso-d hands again;)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

NASA goes pink

Carina Nebula
From Earth's topography to far away moons and supernovas -- a growing set of pink hued NASA images, compiled in honor of Breast Cancer Awareness Month.
Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options: remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally.

I prefer to accept totally, but thats just me;)


I wore makeup yesterday for an hour or two, and now my eyes are on FIRE D:

also I have re-found my photo editing program, I hope to take some cool photographs for you to see. yay! : )

But Id like to share a video a friend shared with me today, just perfect.
much love.
"may we always trust our ability to close our eyes to see more clearly"

Saturday, October 16, 2010

The story of life is quicker then the wink of an eye,
the story of love is hello and goodbye... until we meet again;)
-Jimi Hendrix

Just too beautiful. and one of my favorite quotes of his. It reminds me of something I heard last night, I was listening to David Pitkin on coast to coast, and he was talking about the nature of ghosts and that they are proof of another world besides this one, that death is not the end. He said that ghosts are the equivalent of Catholic's purgatory, they just call it differently, and he told such great stories, some of lovers helping each other beyond this life and plane, or family members helping one another even after death and he said that:

"the bounds of love know no boundaries, and that includes world boundaries"

isnt that just so beautiful.


these are more photos from my trip. One day I was walking by a tree and saw a beautiful colored grasshopper so I took a photo only to notice his entire family there beside him!
so lovely. ♥

A single ego is an absurdly narrow vantage from which to view this ... this experience. And where most consider their individual relationship to the universe, I contemplate relationships ... of my various selves to one another.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Manure and Magellan

just something to maybe lift your spirits if my last post was too depressing or dramatic for you;)

Dont waste one moment on your past mistakes, all flowers need manure :-)

The Large Cloud of Magellan
I wish I had photos of my younger self so you guys can see how much mistakes, and STUPIDITY it took to bring me to where I am now.

I have just been overwhelmed with messages of people telling me how much of an amazing/ beautiful person I am.

Its so crazy because I have just been such an emotionally unstable train wreck my entire life, I cannot even count the phases I went through, the people I hurt so horribly, or the times I hurt myself. I think what I should be living right now at my age, or even in years to come I lived at such a young age and FAST. I have just seen so much and felt so much. I have done so much wrong.

Now I am just in such a good place, but sometimes I am feeling so good that I cannot connect to the piece of shit I once was [or still am ;)], I think you should always see the bad in you, because duality is in everything, sometimes I think i am not even the same person, which is just my ego taking over telling me i am just this nice person now, which is just not at all correct. I am human. I am stupid. I am bad but I am good.

I think sometimes you have to make it a point to kick your ego's ass. that is all.

"A child on a farm sees a plane fly overhead and dreams of a faraway place. A traveler on the plane sees the farmhouse below and dreams of home."


"Now and then it’s good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy."

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Clusters, Hartley, and the Heart

Heart Nebula (IC 1805)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

"It turns out that the areas of the brain activated by intense love are the same areas that drugs use to reduce pain,"

maybe science is catching up?;)


I want to show you guys an artist im really digging right now, shes alot like Julie Mehretu, but more
I dont know, her name is Jackie Tilestone and shes amazing. Enjoy


In a celebration of the 20th anniversary of the launching of Hubble, a replica of the telescope was given a picturesque setting in the Italian Istituto Veneto di Scienze, Lettere ed Arti in their beautiful and historic Palazzo Loredan.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Monday, October 11, 2010

But perhaps I am something more than I suppose myself to be, and it may be that all those perfections which I attribute to God, in some way exist potentially in me, although they do not yet show themselves, and are not reduced to act. Indeed, I am already conscious that my knowledge is being increased [and perfected] by degrees; and I see nothing to prevent it from thus gradually increasing to infinity, nor any reason why, after such increase and perfection, I should not be able thereby to acquire all the other perfections of the Divine nature; nor, in fine, why the power I possess of acquiring those perfections, if it really now exist in me, should not be sufficient to produce the ideas of them.
-Descartes' Meditation III
This is what im making right now, I painted a simple portrait of jimi on the front a while back, this used to be a backpack but it ripped, I just have to finish the strap and some sewing on the sides of the bag. Its coming along pretty nice.
I miss my sewing machine 8(

Sunday, October 10, 2010

"If you learn music you'll learn most all there is to know."
One summer night, out on a flat headland, all but surrounded by the waters of the bay, the horizons were remote and distant rims on the edge of space. Millions of stars blazed in darkness, and on the far shore a few lights burned in cottages. Otherwise there was no reminder of human life. My companion and I were alone with the stars: the misty river of the Milky Way flowing across the sky, the patterns of the constellations standing out bright and clear, a blazing planet low on the horizon. It occurred to me that if this were a sight that could be seen only once in a century, this little headland would be thronged with spectators. But it can be see many scores of nights in any year, and so the lights burned in the cottages and the inhabitants probably gave not a thought to the beauty overhead; and because they could see it almost any night,
perhaps they never will.
~Rachel Carson

a year of tens

Did you notice the date?
A record-breaking number of couples will tie the knot on the 10th day of the 10th month 2010, a date that comes around only every 100 years.

According to numerology, the date represents new beginnings, freedom and self-expression.

"The Numbers Lady" was on C2C a few nights back, talking about this, she said that no matter what, today everybody should light a white candle (if you want) and affirm yourself of what you want in life.

I think Ill take that advice;)

Saturday, October 9, 2010

in the same garden...

Me at a town halfway between my hometown (Joya De Luna), and the nearest city (Cerritos), it is called Montana, I am in this really beautiful garden in the home of a family friend.

Globular Star Cluster NGC 6934

Globular star clusters roam the halo of our Milky Way Galaxy.
Gravitationally bound, these spherical groupings of typically several hundred thousand stars are ancient, older than the stars of the galactic disk. Globular star cluster NGC 6934 itself lies about 50,000 light-years away in the constellation Delphinus. At that distance, this sharp image from Hubble's Advanced Camera for Surveys spans about 50 light-years.(!!!) The cluster stars are estimated to be some 10 billion years old. Beauty.
"There is so much good in the worst of us,
and so much bad in the best of us,
it doesn't behoove any of us to speak evil of the rest of us"
-Edgar Cayce
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
Happy 70th birthday to John Lennon♥

Friday, October 8, 2010

I have a headache and I can feel my insomnia returning, I have enjoyed sleeping too much to let it go now, you know what time it is.................................
"My mind is apt to wander,
and will not yet submit to be restrained within the limits of truth."
- Descartes' Meditation II
Yanomami Indian Maidens, Amazon Rain forest Venezuela

liquid nights

"the music was new black polished chrome, and came over the summer like liquid night"
this was me like a year ago, I think?
I was always loaded on something, I think I wasnt as at peace as I am now,
and maybe a bit psychotic but I think I was at such a creative point then,
I remember listening to Jimis 'One Rainy Wish' and feeling so incredible, the line "Golden rose, the color of the dream I had, not too long ago" resulted in these photographs
I made this before I even owned a camera
then I got a camera, and havent really taken photos like these again
maybe I will start, I really loved it.

Oh how times are a'changing;)
...Is it only in our dusts of death

that we fertelize her womb of soil?

For once unable to ask for a return

the ending part to a beautiful C. Kleefeld poem, and Alex Greys 'dying' 1998
I woke up this morning thinking of Death, I wonder what happened in my dreams?


"It is not all of life to live, nor yet all of death to die. For life and death are one, and only those who will consider the experience as one may come to understand or comprehend what peace indeed means."
-Edgar Cayce

Thursday, October 7, 2010

"Oh Scorpio Woman, Im waiting for you,
even though I dont know what Im supposed to do...

Im waiting as you told me,
by the edge of the sky

I hear your voice,
but I dont know why.....

Everyday I see you sleeping so alone,
through your window I can see you

but its a dream,

clear across the land
sending my love,
sending my love
to you."

♥keeps me up at night ;)

Pacman and Hartley

Touring the solar system with a 6 year orbital period, small comet Hartley 2 (103/P Hartley) will make its closest approach to planet Earth on October 20 and its closest approach to the Sun on October 28.
It may become a naked-eye comet, just visible in clear, dark skies.


I have been sleeping for the first time in my life!

I still catch some coast to coast though,

and last nights guest was British paranormal expert Richard Lawrence, he "discussed ET contacts and communications, UFO disclosure, and ancient reports of UFOs. He spoke about various contactees such as George Adamski, and George King, who founded the Aetherius Society and channeled messages from benevolent ET beings or "Space Masters."

One of the themes that runs across the various communications from ETs is the importance of spirituality throughout the universe"

Well he said something Id like to repeat, he quoted George King and said,

"The only crisis in the world is a spiritual energy crisis, solve that and there will be no crisis"

I think he was very much ON POINT;)
This photo reminds me of something I read a couple months back:
...I was greeted by 3 small fairies who began to spin around my head, each a different color (orange, green and blue) They told me they were going to take me to a place of unimaginable beauty, an island where time is irrelevant. I followed them through a green door that looked as though it was made of glass, but on further inspection it had the consistency of jello. When we arrived at the island I met a young elven goddess, who reminded me of my friends older sister. I had no real understanding of how I got to this island or how any of these things were happening, so I asked the elven goddess why I was brought to the island. All she told me was "prepare for ta'ke ni." I then awoke from my out of body experience, which felt like hours (but was in fact merely minutes) I quickly wrote down what I had been told, which still doesn't make any sense...
Salvia Mirror World

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

“The monotony of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind.”
—Albert Einstein --- From Civilization and Science, October 3, 1933.
Quoted in The Times (London), October 4, 1933.


Ive been meaning to write this blog for a while, because many people ask me to enable comments on here. well its not that I dont value your opinion, I just wanted a place to share with you all what I see, and how I see it. I dont want a type of fame or anything like that, I would never allow advertising on here and I dont have a public profile set up, this is more a place of peace, than another way to feed my ego. I like simple lives. If you would so like to talk I am on facebook, and I do have a myspace page, and of course my e mail. I will be happy to tell you more of something, or answer your questions. I am so happy that I get messages regarding this blog, thank you so much for reading it!♥
much love and peace to you all.