Saturday, July 17, 2010


Hi guys, thank you so much for reading my blog, I really love that you dig it, and am so happy when I receive messages in response to posts. I will be on a hiatus ;) for a while, I dont think ill have much access to technology surrounded by mountains. I will be taking many books though B). Well I dont plan on sleeping tonight because I want to sleep through as much of the trip as I can, I am passing the time reading a little book named 'World of 1001 mysteries' by Russell Stannard. It is a children's book, but I really enjoy it, I think you guys may find it interesting, it is about physics so if you do not enjoy that sort of thing, maybe not. :3 anyways I hope you guys dont forget about me!

Much Love and Peace to you all.♥


This is the Beauty of your world, take care of it.

"Peace and Happiness, and all that other good shit"


Friday, July 16, 2010

Hubble Deep Field

May be my favorite image from maybe my favorite space craft. *_*

Born a poor young country boy--Mother Nature's son
All day long I'm sitting singing songs for everyone.

Sit beside a mountain stream--see her waters rise
Listen to the pretty sound of music as she flies.

Find me in my field of grass--Mother Nature's son
Swaying daises sing a lazy song beneath the sun.

Mother Nature's son.

if i was a boy i would be mother natures son, and maybe this song would be about me :(
but we are all mother natures children;)

I do not want a house, I maybe wanted to live in a van or buy an RV *_*
I am researching how to convert the engines to run on alcohol or a mixture of many things you know?

I guess I just am what people call commitment phobic, when it comes to EVERYTHING I am forever changing, ever evolving and I enjoy my endless curiosity to experience different aspects of life, but looking at this photo makes me want to have a small place to call home, with maybe even a lover by my side, maybe?♥


Superflow - Bachelor Thesis - Volume 01 from Ian Clemmer on Vimeo.

Cookie monster

i have finished all of my fortune cookies, :o
i gave some away but the ones i ate had very good fortunes :)

and they are very similar at that, anyways i enjoyed reading them after i had no cookies left -_-

may they be fulfilled.
the intention is out there;)

good morning

no sleep
cold (a bit)
good smells
bad smells
falling (almost)

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I need a brand new friend who doesn't bother me,
I need a brand new friend who doesn't trouble me,
I need somebody who doesn't need me.

And I'll say it again,
I need a brand new friend,

ricky rossssssss

Oh man i wanna die
'cause walking around on the ground is really cramping my high

Hollywood, up to no good;)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

avoid death

I must drink about two gallons of green tea a day.
it is so fucking delicious.
I drink organic green tea though.

oh and on a related note, yesterday i learned that if you drink 4 gallons of water within 24hrs you die from a water-electrolyte inbalance!


Oh uh, I see fingers, hands and shades of faces,
Reachin up and not quite touchin the promised land,
I hear pleas and prayers and a desperate whisper sayin,
Oh Lord please give us a helpin hand,
Yeah yeah
Way down in the background,
I can see frustrated souls of cities burnin,
And all across the water vapor,
I see weapons barkin out the stamp of death,
And up in the clouds I can imagine UFO's jumpin themselves,
Laughin they sayin,
"Those people so uptight, they sure know how to make a mess.."
Back in the saloon my tears mix and mildew with my drink,
I can't really tell my feet from the stones on the floor,
But as far as I know,
they may even try to wrap me up in cellophane and try and sell me
Brothers help me,
and dont worry about lookin at the score
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Mi amor♥

Once I had, a little game
I liked to crawl back in my brain
I think you know the game I mean
I mean the game called 'go insane'
Now you should try this little game
Just close your eyes forget your name
Forget the world forget the people
And we'll erect a different steeple
This little game is fun to do
Just close your eyes no way to lose
And I'm right there I'm going too
Release control we're breaking through
The origin of love


Ive just been
putting color
on top
of color
on top
of color

Magnetic Loops

We need to be paying closer attention to the Sun.

As the arcing loops above an active region began to rotate into a nice profile view, SDO captured the dynamic, magnetic struggles taking place below (July 6-8, 2010). Particles spiraling along magnetic field lines trace their paths. Magnetic forces in the active region are connecting, breaking apart, and reconnecting. These images were taken in extreme ultraviolet light. Although mostly hidden from our view, the active region did unleash a number of small flares. (UPI/NASA)
I was up last night/morning doing my usual insomniac things when i walked passed our restroom door....
awww my little sister and her shenanigans ♥

Music Scene

"The Music Scene" from Anthony Francisco Schepperd on Vimeo.

Mi favorito

Es bueno, amor, sentirte cerca de mí en la noche,
invisible en tu sueño, seriamente nocturna,
mientras yo desenredo mis preocupaciones
como si fueran redes confundidas.

Ausente, por los sueños tu corazón navega,
pero tu cuerpo así abandonado respira
buscándome sin verme, completando mi sueño
como una planta que se duplica en la sombra.

Erguida, serás otra que vivirá mañana,
pero de las fronteras perdidas en la noche,
de este ser y no ser en que nos encontramos

algo queda acercándonos en la luz de la vida
como si el sello de la sombra señalara
con fuego sus secretas criaturas.

you know

I must go! day

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The Mind is a place itself, and can make a Heaven out of a Hell.

"The mind is its own place, and in itself, can make heaven of Hell, and a hell of Heaven."
-John Milton


How amazingly beautiful, a favorite video of mine. Enjoy!

bought a box of fortune cookies today
i always buy them and read only the first fortune, from there i dont really care too much.

and sometimes i read the last. or just give fortunes away, haha.
the first cookie i ate read:

i think its appropriate right?;)

a friend shared this video with me today...

"If the Sun at its rising is like a crescent and wears a crown like the Moon: the king will capture his enemy's land; evil will leave the land, and (the land) will experience good . . . "

Ive been kind of off people lately

..just been enjoying some time alone, spending time outside with my self and outside myself, doin my lame nerdy things you know tha deal. it is much needed, caught up on a lot of painting and i feel so refreshed, but now i get kind of paranoid in large crowds, but that was always the problem. haha
Creativity is flowing and Ideas are manifesting.
A solitary soul i have always been

Wild Child

I dont know why i took my nipple rings out.
Its been a few years, i think i want them again, i think body art and piercings are such great statements of individuality and expression.

All i have now is my Monroe and belly, i feel lame

I dont want to go alone, someone come with!
you wont regret them, pain is a part of life.

its a beautiful thing

Monday, July 12, 2010

I love dancing to The Doors, its so awesome, when i tell people they're all like "i didn't know you could dance to The Doors" or "How?!"
You can dance to anything!, i love itttt, but i dance weird i just feel the music and moooove. I guess it looks a bit like belly dancing idk i have my eyes closed the whole time, sometimes i open them and you can see trails, mannnn what a feeling!

my favorites to dance to are 'My Wild Love', 'Not to touch the Earth', and sometimes 'Moonlight Drive' (the early version).

lets swimm to the mooon.............♥♥♥


Best thing Ive heard all week!

Heaven is for those who have been forgiven,
Hell is for those who cant forgive themselves.
-Ian Punnett

manic depression

One day when i was feeling so depressed with everything, then the oil spill happened and i went overboard i was so completely overwhelmed, well a friend cheered me up with this, ♥ENJOY!

Living in the motherfucking USA!

The Wall

i am addicted to post its, i listen to alot of things, read some more things, and watch alot of other things and always take notes like a weirdo, and sometimes i write down ideas in the middle of the night and in the morning they make NO sense!
i also write down book titles and ideas for future paintings, or plants to look up you know you know. i have this bulletin board where i keep reference photos, sketches and post some of the post it notes, or loose papers but i have journals and folders FULL of this gibberish
♥Jonathan Ott♥
One of the people i so admire and RESPECT,
and thinking about it, most of my heroes are men!
where are the ladies at?
oh, im right here;)


There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened.
-Douglas Adams
[English humorist & science fiction novelist (1952 - 2001)]
Infinity of the Now
".............Imagine understanding your own mind to be a map, a very small representation of a very large idea, and suddenly discovering that it was, in fact, foldable, and that it had been folded for all time................
........From there I was told by a small man sitting in a plant that I was mediocre, and that in and of itself, my mediocrity had a function, which was to define what is great, and what is not, because how can the great be great if it is commonplace?.......
.....And then I realize that we are longing, as humans, for contact, any contact, with ourselves and those whom we love, and that contact is so elusive, and seemingly inadequate, and yet, even every touch and word from another is a precious singularity, never to be repeated, but only diminished by retelling, and remembering, and finally, fading away................."

Fading so that the next moments touch may be experienced in the here and now. say "yes" to each holy moment.
if you try to cling to one then you create time and miss all the other presents of the Now. (presence of the Now.)
If you want to find Buddha, Buddhism is an obstacle that must be overcome.

....I think the same goes for religions of all sorts like, if you want to find God, Christianity is an obstacle that must be overcome. maybe? ;)

Teachers can only open a door. You must walk through it under your own stream.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Just hangin with Mr. George Noory ;)
by the way those chips were grosssss
i try not to eat processed, or gm food but i love hot cheetos!
pick your poison right?

David Choe

I love to see different styles of art, especially different portraits of Jimi♥


Day two of shopping, man i must have spent half the day in the mall, -_-

and everywhere else you can think of, it was so hard to find a gold dress (all the girls are wearing gold) i got home with a huge headache smoked a bowl, and slept my afternoon away, got some MUCH needed sleep. well i ended up buying this dress, its cute right? i dont know, well i think its nice. ^_^

*after reading this i feel like im talking to myself, i dont know is this how you talk on blogs?
i hope so

its only appropriate ;)

what a morning, first off i have been very interested in astral projection lately and have been trying my hand at it, i would so love to swim through the skies and see everything, especially at night time. but i have trouble, and havent been successful yet. I rarely sleep and that doesnt help too much either, my night routine is to listen to coast to coast and then eventually sleep comes. sometimes.

Coast to Coast is a late night radio talk show i really enjoy, i just lay in bed and take notes sometimes, or listen while i paint, you know you know.

okay the interesting part now, last night i was listening and the show ended and as usual i am still up, it ends at 4:00am here in my city, so i then decide to keep the radio on, and sleep still doesnt come..

it is now about 6:00am and i turn off the radio and listen to my ipod, i decide to listen to one of my Terence McKenna lectures, i choose one titled 'nature is the center of the Mandala' it is nice and calm and i listen for a while, then i dont know what happened because the next thing i remember is waking up? but i am not awake! i am not conscious i try to move but i cant it was so crazy, i was kind of freaked out and i try to speak but i couldnt!!! then i try and speak louder but i am weighed down, and i swear all i kept thinking was "no fucking way" so i try so hard to get up but its like i have weights strapped to my arms, but after a few seconds i am able to lift my right arm a little higher than my left, but then i realize something so awesome, that im looking at my hand down on bed while i have the same hand in the air! I immediately thought " fuck yes" and i tried to like slingshot the rest of myself out of my body but when i got to my head i 'woke up' i felt my physical body and it was over :(

I just get entirely up and am amazed at what happened, i look at my phone and it is 7:13am, i cannot go back to sleep so i just sit back and enjoy this feeling while i listen to Jimi's "Scorpio Woman" it was magical, what a life! so many facets to this mysterious, beautiful experience.

that is the closest i have come to a total OBE of that sort.
it was so incredible, i was looking at my astral body, i was golden!, i glowed and i felt so euphoric and i just know that when i look in the mirror i am not looking at myself, like this body is not me, i always just intuitively had that notion, but this morning just intensified that, it was so profound.

A time warp, of sorts, and a digital space warp too.

The time warp occurs because this image captured in a single frame a four hour exposure of the night sky. As a result, prominent star trails are visible. The space warp occurs because the picture is actually a full 360 degree panorama, horizontally compressed to fit your browser. As the Earth rotated, stars appeared to circle both the South Celestial Pole, on the left, and the North Celestial Pole, just below the horizon on the right. The image captured the sky over Mudgee, New South Wales, Australia, including the domes of two large telescopes illuminated by red lighting. how beautiful!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I guess i just want to say that this was the funnest time ive had painting, i did this when the storms of the hurricane Alex could be felt here in my town, i was jammin, feeling good ;) and painting outside in the rain it was so beautiful.♥

still raining..still dreaming

Have you ever driven with the windows down
out in a lone road in the countryside
or on the highway in the city,
the wind blowing your hair out of control
and you stick your hand out to see what it feels like to grab it?

I do, and I cant ever seem to grab it ;)

I saw the sky swirling (it was night out) in various ways and various angles, constantly changing shapes and patterns...

One friend was lying face down in the grass and said, "well whatever you guys are looking at, it's much better than this grass here!"

The Gaian Mind

I had the pleasure to attend a little lecture with Alex Grey as the speaker, even though we got there a little late and had to sit outside it was still amazing, i think he sounds a bit like Terence McKenna in the way i hear them like robots form another world, they are just that great! haha

this is my favorite Alex Grey piece, and to hear him talk about it made the evening so worth it!

I guess its because one of the craziest, strangest and a bit frightening but the most beautiful trip ive had was like a twisted version of this painting, and ever since then ive loved this, and i can really say, as cliche as it sounds, that this trip made me care for our mother earth in a whole other way, it just so touched my soul.
I dont want to get to far into detail just because i still feel overwhelmed and sometimes get crazy and emotional *-* but if you would so like to know, i may share.

much love and peace :)
i had to go shopping for dresses today.
it was so uncomfortable, i am not so much fond of shopping in the first place, unless it is for interesting little things i can make art with or to decorate and restore, like at antique shops or thrift stores but not for clothes or things of that nature, i dont think im stylish enough, i am clueless i just wear a t shirt and jeans and these boots i own and im okay.

well i am going to be going to my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary soon and we need a gold dress, i couldn't find one -_-

i shop for clothes like i shop for groceries, i know what i want and i go find it, i dont try things on to see how they 'fit' i dont imagine myself eating a tomato before i buy it, its a tomato! a shirt is a shirt! i dont understand how one can spend an entire day shopping for only a few things, it gives me a headache :o

but i do enjoy to sometimes dress up and put makeup on, i dont think materialism or vanity are attractive though ..

but i do have some vanity in the sense that i do enjoy feeling nice and pretty sometimes and i do care for myself, my body, i take care of my face the regular things you know?

i think its okay to sometimes go crazy and feel fancy, although a natural woman, to me is the most beautiful.


Friday, July 9, 2010


All I seem to do lately is drink green tea and paint :B