Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Monday, August 30, 2010

Nadie me quiere Todos me odian Mejor me como un gusanito Le corto la cabeza Le saco lo de adentro ... Que rico gusanito!!!



what is more necessary my books, or clothes?
I say books!
ha ha
and paint of course.
HEAVY suitcase in the making.
What an astonishing thing a book is. It's a flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny dark squiggles. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author is speaking clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other, citizens of distant epochs. Books break the shackles of time. A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.

watercolor book

I have done some new works in my book, but they are all in the midst of coming to be.
Im just gonna show this one because im really liking the turn out.
Its my name:)


crystal flowers
so Im painting a crystal flower;)
not too shabby


I hope this old train breaks down
So I can take a walk around and
See there’s no time you see 'cause
Time is just a melody
But the people in the streets
Walkin’ fast as their feet can take ‘em
I just rode through town
And though this window’s got a view
But the frame I’m lookin’ through
Seems to have no concern for now
You know you can't stop nothin’
If you got no control
Over the thoughts in your mind
That you kept and you know
That you don’t know nothin’
But you don’t need to know
’Cause all the wisdom’s in the trees
Not the glass windows
I will be singing this in the train on the way out;)

"For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love."

And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

Departing partII

Well I have been feeling change making its way onto my life.
Its arrived as another stay in Mexico, Im going to go live there for a while,
I dont know how long yet.
hopefully a couple of months?
although it may just be weeks. I dont know, and I love it that way.
I just need to get away.
Mostly, Ive just been reminiscing and thinking about my life and where I am
where im going especially,
I feel like my past was lived in some distant tangent,
my now is manifesting before I can even react.
and my future, I cannot even imagine.
I have never felt so trapped in time.
"Theres someone in my head,
But its not me"

If you wish to make an apple pie from scratch,
you must first invent the universe.

our beautiful home

When Dr. Alexander Fleming, founder of penicillin, was asked why he would not test on a dog, a rat or an orphaned child, his reply was, “Why would I test a cure for a human malaise on a species of God that has done nothing to our species but try to endure us? And furthermore, the minute we begin to test on children is the very minute I shall stop attempting to find cures to save us as a race.”


“Personally, I experience the greatest degree of pleasure in having contact with works of art. They furnish me with happy feelings of an intensity that I cannot derive from other sources.”

—Albert Einstein --- Quoted by Moszkowski in Conversations with Einstein, 184

Friday, August 27, 2010

The Milky Way casts a shadow
"Serious psychedelic voyagers I think, can agree the further in you go into this realm, the larger it appears to be, really what were doing is were discovering the inner richness of organism. that you know, the richness of the human world is not in owning stuff, the richness of the human world is,.. lies in being able to access what is within us. Our minds are not blank slates, or merely repositories of traumatic memory. Our minds are doorways into an infinite Labyrinth, a kind of.. library of infinite possibilities and we can choose to open these doorways in whatever sequence or fashion we wish."


Ive been thinking of taking up tattooing, I think that would be fun and, (fitting? I guess), I enjoy drawing with pen, and I have never drawn with pencil, that I can remember, except for some time ago I did a sketch in pencil, but pen is just my favorite,
I think maybe this will be my next hobby.
Oh and also, I could use some piercing clamps/forcepts.
then ill be good. ;)
On romantic evenings of Self,
I go salsa dancing with my confusion.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Albert Einstein sent the following letter to President Roosevelt in 1939. The fear of Germans acquiring nuclear technology, espoused here, is considered to be the motivation for the U.S.’ creation of the atomic bomb.

And later:
Because of the danger that Hitler might be the first to have the bomb, I signed a letter to the President which had been drafted by Szilard. Had I known that the fear was not justified, I would not have participated in opening this Pandora’s box, nor would Szilard. For my distrust of governments was not limited to Germany.

reading war

...the permission to abstract from nature that print created is why we have such a terrible culture crisis. Because, well, a trivial example, it was said, by Marshall McLuhan, strangely enough, that the Vietnam war could not be won the way an ordinary war is won, because the citizenry couldn’t tolerate the sight of what war was, and modern warfare became impossible when it could be televised into the living room, because war is something that you must read about, you must not see it, it must be this grand thing of the distant clash of armies and young heroes being created, but when it turns into amputation and maggots and screams of pain, the political fund goes out of it. So war is therefore a literary activity, and the one argument that can remain in television’s favor, is people don’t like to see images of violence. If we have to show so much violence on television, let it always be real. The violence is only indefensible, when it’s vicarious. If it’s real violence, you need to see it, because it’s happening in a world for which you have a partial moral responsibility. I think warfare has been remade by media in that sense. A lot of politics has been remade, because imperial doings are usually ugly, brutal, and not something you’d want to exhibit before the populace. And yet modern media makes that very difficult to avoid...

-Terence McKenna


Here's a little song i wrote,
you might want to sing it note for note,
don't worry, be happy

In every life we have some trouble,
when you worry you make it double
don't worry, be happy

the persistence of memory

I am reminded of a trip I took through time.
It was just a couple hours but enough to amaze me forever.
I only bring this up because in this moment I wish I could go back a day, or two.
Although I know if given the chance, I wouldn't.

Its absolutely inexcusable with our level of technological development, including birth control technology, to have the kind of idiocy.., but you see the lunacy is part of the dominator system, because its not by accident that the most rigidly dominator systems are the ones who are so rabidly against family planning, who are so rabidly against reproductive freedom for women, who are so rabidly against any other role for women, any other definition for women other than basically male controlled technology of reproduction, breeders.. preferably of mens' sons.

I mean that doesn't have to be, right?

—Riane Eisler
from 'man and woman at the end of time'



Know what you eat. Its your body, take care of it .


I had the most horrible day yesterday, doing okay today.
I found this photo to brighten my spirits.
happy Wednesday :)
Today is the tomorrow you hoped for and the yesterday you wish you never wasted.
Use it wisely.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

A Machine That Turns Plastic Back Into Oil


Alex Grey 1984


"We have a remarkable ability to pervert and to..., I think it was Ludwig von Bertalanffy, one of the founders of general systems theory who said, "people are not machines, but in every situation where they are offered the opportunity to behave like machines, they will so behave."

..and this is the problem of addiction and habit ..and that addiction is merely a special type of habit, and i think we can all agree that habit in all forms kills what we want to bring to flower in life, because as a habit sets in attention can go elsewhere, and then that part of life is somehow on automatic as it becomes a machine like function. So we are now being told that were in a midst of a tremendous political crisis that goes under the banner of the "Drug Problem" but the drug problem is an addiction problem and the addiction is, in my mind, the addiction of intelligence agencies to vast amounts of untraceable money. This is the addiction that drives the global drug problem."

from 'man and woman at the end of time'


Since I have been on and off without a computer I have enjoyed alot of movies lately, by alot of movies I mean the movie 300 over and over again, it is just stunning to watch!
Maybe in another life, I roamed Greece.
It is one of the places I inexplicably feel so connected to *_*


I never cease to be humbled and amazed when I see our Planet Earth reduced to a pinpoint when photographed from elsewhere in the solar system. So far, our planet-roaming spacecraft have taken tourist snapshots of Earth as seen from Mars, Saturn, and beyond Pluto’s orbit.

But this latest view from NASA’s MESSENGER (MErcury Surface, Space ENvironment, GEochemistry and Ranging) spacecraft is a jaw-dropper.

For the first time we see Earth -- in astronomical parlance -- as a fully illuminated
superior planet 114 million mile outward from Mercury. Earth really looks like a double star because the moon is snuggled up next to it.

In fact this kind of humbling photograph makes the debate over planet-size -- as in the case of the Pluto hysteria – seem irrelevant. Face it, we live on a speck of cosmic dust.

The snapshot was not taken for inspiration but for science. It’s part of MESSENGER's campaign to search for
vulcanoids. These aren't Mr. Spock mutants, but small rocky objects that might exist in orbits between Mercury and the Sun.Views like this momentarily lift us from the gravitational pull of our warlike species. It makes all of our political fights, conflicts and upheavals seem puny and irrelevant against the velvet black backdrop of a star sprinkled infinite universe. You might imagine such a view from standing alongside the thrones of mythological gods.

Carl Sagan was first taken back by the distant Earth perspective when the Voyager 1 spacecraft photograph Earth from 3.7 billion miles away in 1990. He was inspired to write the 1994 book, “Pale Blue Dot: A Vision of the Human Future in Space.”

Ok, so what if Earth is just a dot in the picture? Well, it’s incredible to think that dot encompasses all the achievements, joys, fears, and tears of the 100 billion people who have occupied this celestial pebble since the dawn of our species.

- Ray Villard


About 2,000 light-years away, the ridge spans about 10 light-years and follows the curve of the cosmic pelican's head and neck.
Fixed my computer again, I think for good.(hopefully)
I was supposed to go to Houston this weekend but I guess I got deserted :O

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

z z z z z z z

I have not slept.
maybe I will do so now, im feeling a bit sleepy, finally.
It is 10:30am here.
It must be night somewhere on Earth,
so Goodnight.
lets climb through the tide...


Remember to occasionally let the earth run through your fingers and to kiss the sky.

smile with the rising sun

'cause every little thing... is gonna be alright.


Tuesday, August 17, 2010


Jewel Box

The great variety of star colors in this open cluster underlies its name:
The Jewel Box.
This Jewel Box lies about 6,400 light-years away, so the light that we see today was emitted from the cluster before even the Great Pyramids in Egypt were built(!!!!). The Jewel Box spans about 20 light-years, and can be seen with binoculars towards the southern constellation of the cross (Crux).

star shower

Night of the Perseids
Culture replaces authentic feeling with words.

One of my favorites, Ive been meaning to share...

"Imagine an infant lying in its cradle, and the window is open, and into the room comes something, marvelous, mysterious, glittering, shedding light of many colors, movement, sound, a tranformative hierophany of integrated perception and the child is enthralled and then the mother comes into the room and she says to the child, "that's a bird, baby, that's a bird," instantly the complex wave of the angel peacock iridescent transformative mystery is collapsed, into the word. All mystery is gone, the child learns this is a bird, this is a bird, and by the time we're five or six years old all the mystery of reality has been carefully tiled over with words. This is a bird, this is a house, this is the sky, and we seal ourselves in within a linguistic shell of disempowered perception, and what the psychedelics do is they burst apart this cultural envelope of confinement and return us really to the legacy and birthright of the organism."
-Terence McKenna
from 'The Experiment at Petaluma'

A butterfly came into my room the other day

....i dont know where he is now, maybe back outside?;)
life without a computerrrrrrr

I have caught up on much needed reading and done some painting. Ive really just been taking time off everything, I dont enjoy facebook so much anymore, and myspace lost my interest quite a time ago. My room is as messy as ever (as you can see)
the other night I started painting this little weird looking thing inspired by many cnidarians I came across in a marine aquarium book of mine, I was also listening to coast, and they had a great show on near death experiences, it was fascinating. The guest was cardiologist Dr. Pim Van Lommel who was talking about his book:
well he told an amazing story of a womans near death experience and, as I am always taking notes on everything, I took a quote from him. A woman who had a NDE during surgery recalled asking a diseased uncle of hers about the bright light to whom many who've had these experiences refer to.
she asked,
"Is the light God?"
to which the uncle replied,
"No, the light is what happens when God breathes."
she goes on to recall..
"I remember thinking, ' Im standing in the breath of God.' "
beautiful right!?
I think so!
its been a while since my last posts, my computer decided to be a bastard and not work,
it is working quite nice today,
today is all i need ;)

Them changes

Well my mind is goin' through them changes
I feel just like I'm in the time
Every time you see me goin' some where
I feel like I'm going out of my mind,

Well my mind is goin' through them changes
I think I'm goin' out of my mind
Every time you see me goin' some where
I think I could commit a crime

Saturday, August 7, 2010

looking down......

more photos from my vacation
"...I mean, a bug walking across the ground moved me to tears."


The first artist I ever knew,
and all it took for me to pick up a paintbrush.
Albuquerque, New Mexico, U.S.A. Photographer: Gerald Byrnes


This is a photo I took of a fallen beehive after a storm. ;(

I think it looks very interesting, although I dont think it was the storm winds that knocked it down, I think it had already fallen, and I just took a photo one day.